Katelyn has been at college for almost a week now. It occurred to me when I dropped her off that she is at the exact age I was when I found out I was pregnant. Her life is so different from mine. It feels wrong to say better, but it's different - more traditional, more time for her to spread her wings, etc. And for that I am so grateful.
I had Keely/Morgan for a few days, so I haven't really experienced an empty nest for a week. I anticipate each week will bring some different feelings and observations. This weekend I had a decent chunk of time to myself, of which I spent doing mundane house things that have been driving me nuts, doing a little bit of food prep, some cleaning, etc. As the day went on and I did these things, I felt more and more relaxed. Even shut off my computer for a bit.
Before shutting it off, I looked through some of my old weight loss surgery photos for inspiration - and I put the "Do Life" one on my fridge. It's hard to believe it's the same person, yet I can still vaguely remember what it felt like to have that kind of body. Fit, tan, healthier in a plethora of ways.
The purpose of this blog is to get into the habit of writing again. But writing for me - not for an audience or even a core group of friends. In the past few years I've been so busy healing from the time with Travis and building my career at work while trying to raise a teenager that so many of my talents or interests have fallen by the wayside.
It's overwhelming to think of turning my life upside down to become the person I dream of. Rather, I want to be that person NOW. Regardless of weight, the person that stretches herself and tries and isn't afraid to look inward in ways outside of work and family.
With generosity of thought,
Michelle
I had Keely/Morgan for a few days, so I haven't really experienced an empty nest for a week. I anticipate each week will bring some different feelings and observations. This weekend I had a decent chunk of time to myself, of which I spent doing mundane house things that have been driving me nuts, doing a little bit of food prep, some cleaning, etc. As the day went on and I did these things, I felt more and more relaxed. Even shut off my computer for a bit.
Before shutting it off, I looked through some of my old weight loss surgery photos for inspiration - and I put the "Do Life" one on my fridge. It's hard to believe it's the same person, yet I can still vaguely remember what it felt like to have that kind of body. Fit, tan, healthier in a plethora of ways.
The purpose of this blog is to get into the habit of writing again. But writing for me - not for an audience or even a core group of friends. In the past few years I've been so busy healing from the time with Travis and building my career at work while trying to raise a teenager that so many of my talents or interests have fallen by the wayside.
It's overwhelming to think of turning my life upside down to become the person I dream of. Rather, I want to be that person NOW. Regardless of weight, the person that stretches herself and tries and isn't afraid to look inward in ways outside of work and family.
With generosity of thought,
Michelle
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